This is not a new painting. I have been toying with this painting for years. I started this particular attempt back in November.
I am doing this painting out on my north facing front porch, which is extremely relaxing. It mimics the peaceful atmosphere I am trying to achieve in this painting. In contrast, it is nice to have the reality of nature around me while I paint this very surreal idea.
A couple people have commented that this is pretty eerie. Hopefully as it begins to take on color and look more like I see in my mind, some of that will go away. It is hard to paint a cheerful graveyard, I suppose. I am usually a people pleaser. Comments like that have caused me to pull this one off the easel more than once. I don't really mind that some people will not like this. I am doing this one for me.
I usually have the end result I want pretty mapped out when I start a painting. Although I have references, I am mostly winging it this time. I have no idea what colors I will end up using. I have already moved and changed things around a bit and will probably continue to do so as I search for answers in paint. This is pretty therapeutic for me to be out of my comfort zone both in approach and subject matter. I am learning a lot about my own insecurity and artistic fears. I think once I get this painting behind me I will be a better artist in many ways. Working through, beyond and despite the negative reviews is going to be an accomplishment for me. Learning to just relax and paint without a stamp of approval is hard. Ironically, this painting is mostly about approval when I think about it.
I am playing around with titles for this. Hopefully the right name will come to me by the time it is done. So far I have "Motherly Advice", "Because I miss her" and "Just Ten Minutes". I doubt it will ever sell, but it would be nice to have a suitable name.
Playing with some of the inking tools in #clipstudiopaint I am learning to really appreciate this program more as I get used to using it.This is no one in particular for no particular purpose. It's just handy to have some random images for NPCs. My #happyDM is pushing for color. The job is never done. #dungeonsanddragons #digitalart #illustration
Eternal Wait - I finally quit fidgeting with this one. It is #graphite on 8.5x11 smooth bristol board. It is nice to get something to a finish. No matter where I roam in media, graphite will always be my true love. I will be taking this to #Shakedown3 this weekend if you want to see it in person. #art #artist #drawingvia Instagram
Toxic - This is a journal entry before words are added.The topic of toxic people has been coming up in many discussions lately. This is how I think it would look if you could make a visual image. This started as a simple form study and ended up as this. #journal #art #artjournal #selfcare #toxicpeople #getitoutofmyheadvia Instagram
Number 3 in my quest to complete #inktober2017 I started with an ink wash and then used my Microns to accent the details. This is definitely an experiment worth repeating. It reminds me of the interior illustrations in books when I was a kid It is #ink on #watercolorpostcard #art #artist #drawing #illustrationvia Instagram